The thing about reading is that you get exposed to ideas that are terrifying, and then you can't unthink them. I read A Short History of Everything the other day, just before my kindle exploded. That was following on the heels of some Hitchens tripe. Somewhere along the way in Japan I turned into an atheist.
Or maybe it would be more correct to say I stopped not being an atheist. Because it feels like belief (or trying to believe) took work, and atheism is what's left when I stop trying to cover it up and distract myself.
My mom smiled at me and said "Some day you'll realize what a big mistake you're making." I smiled back and changed the subject to something about a movie, I think, because what other response is there? "Fifty years from now you'll be dead and then you won't exist anymore?" Hardly appropriate, even if it's true.
The days are so hot and sweaty here I smell sour half an hour after showering. It's pretty gross.
There are only four more classes in the semester.
I'm climbing mount Fuji in two weeks.
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